The Spanish way
When I’m in the states, I am always thinking about the next thing to get accomplished, I always feel anxious, and it’s hard for me to be able to relax, because I am constantly saying to my self, “I should be doing this…I should be getting this done…I should, I should, I should…” And as a result, I am never really truly enjoying my self, my life, and my time spent with friends and family. This anxious mentality is hardly pleasant, it is rather annoying and makes it nearly impossible to relax. haha Some people have asked me, “Why did you move to Spain?” and the answer to this question is being revealed day by day. Part of my decision to move to Spain, was to experience a different way of living, to get away from everything I was familiar with and emerge my self in a new culture, a new way, the Spanish way. I am on a journey, trying to grow, live and learn. To learn a different way to live apart from the only way I knew. So for today, I am learning to stop saying the words, “I should”. They are limiting, and leave no room for following what feels good in my soul. The words “I should” make me a slave to these endless tasks of living, and I want to live life experiencing the joy in the work I do. I don’t want to just get things done for the sake of I shoulds anymore. I hope I can adapt this mentality while I am here, I am a work in progress, so we shall see.
I am learning to slow down. I am learning to have acceptance with my self, and my language ability, which is also a work is process. I am reading children’s books in Spanish, and that is okay with me. I am releasing judgement, and enjoying the process of learning new words. Why did I move to Spain…..till next time.