October 7th, 2011 9 years TODAY!
9 years ago today was the last day I used. My life has become remarkable, and I am doing things that I always wanted to do, striving to be the person I want to be (although I sometimes fail), and doing work I believe in. There are times where I wish I accomplished more, could be more, do more, MORE MORE MORE! There’s so much I want to do in life, and thus far I have not let fear stop me. Sobriety has afforded me the opportunity to walk gracefully through my fear, follow my intuition, have compassion for others and listen to others, gauge where my life is at, but most importantly it has giving me my a relationships with my friends and family. A month ago I moved to Spain, and although I do not speak Spanish, I will make sure to get to the only meeting once a week in my small town tonight. We speak the language of the heart, and I feel at home in the rooms of AA. I may not understand what they say, but it is important that I show up to the meeting tonight and say, Soy Moira, Soy un alcohólico. The fellowship is large, and I have friends all over the world thanks to AA. Time flies, and why am I still clean? Idk, the only explanation is that God is doing for me, what I cannot do for my-self, during times when I had given up and really thought I was ‘normal’. I am thankful, I am greatful, and I am fotunate to live this life on a spiritual basis and to be able to call my self an alcoholic.
thanks to everyone who has shown their support, and listened to me.